I wanna connect...

 How is everyone doing out there?
I wish there was a better way to interact with people who read my blog or who just want to chat and be connected. Please know that I LOVE to talk and ask questions and be asked questions...so if you are like me LET'S GET TO CONNECTING on the World Wide Web :) You can inbox me or leave comments on my posts anytime :)

Hope you are all living and breathing fabulous lives! Remember that it all goes by so fast so let's take advantage of the time we have on the earth together and make the best of it!

I hope I receive some comments or questions soon :)

Best sound I ever heard...

For all those wondering what happened yesterday...
I went to the Doctor yesterday and had an ultrasound and there was definitely ONE baby! :) :) :) You have no idea the relief I felt when I SAW that blinking little bean up on that big screen! Not only was that absolutely magical and amazing but then the technician turned up the volume with NO warning and I heard the most beauiful sound I ever did hear...a heartbeat SO loud, so strong that I started to cry. I actually heard my baby's heartbeat for the 1st time EVER in life! I will never get this moment back...that was the most incredible thing I have ever heard and I only have God to thank for that moment. I will treasure it and never forget it.

Next time I am definitely bringing a recording device so I can hear it EVERY DAY OF MY LIFE. Maybe I can even figure out how to post an audio clip so I can share it all with you :)

To all those who thought of me or prayed for me...THANK YOU. We did it! We got through the first major week and I have nothing but GOODNESS to report...I go next Thursday at 9 am to see him or her and hear it all over again :) It's like me and my little bean have dates every week :) I love this! I love life!

Officially the happiest girl in the world!

Dear God...

Please be with me today as I travel to the Doctors office. Please hold my hand as they do yet another ultrasound. Will they find one or two? I just want one healthy blessing from above. We just want to get to January and have you always in our hearts, by our side, protecting and loving us. Thank you to all of those praying. Friends, family and people who I don't even know are keeping us in their thoughts and that means more to me than you know. Thank you for giving us another day to live and to breathe. Thank you for this miracle. Please keep the inside of my tummy safe and let the heavens smile down on all of us who need it today :)

In your name we pray, Amen.

One or TWO?...

I haven't written sooner cause it's been an INTENSE last week or so! Let me explain...

In my last post I was going to go to the Doctor and find out about my bllod work, remember?
well low and behold...I have NOTHING WRONG WITH MY BLOOD :)
YAY...yipeeeee!!!!
Everything I was so worried about suddenly dissolved...thankfully!  I was thanking God and loving life until...I get a call the next day from my Doctor...

"Hi this is your Dr.'s office calling to let you know that your hormone levels for pregnancy are through the rough so that's great BUT we need you to come in right away for an ultrasound as we could not find a sac in your uterus yesterday"   (This is my face > :( < )

So here I go jumping in my car to head to the Dr. to get this ultrasound that will tell me if in fact I am pregnant or not even through the blood tests say YES. Now they are scarring me with Etopic pregnancy. Great. Trying to pray, meditate and tell myself that no matter what happens, everything will be ok.

I get there they rush me to a lab and do an ultrasound. They not only FIND a sac in my uterus (thank HEAVENS) but they also think they see TWO SACS in there. Do you know what this means????
TWINS. I will repeat...TWINS. I almost die, flat line right there in front of them from the shock. I don't know whether or not to be happy, scared, nervous or what??? I am all of these emotions and MORE. Could you imagine? Me having twins? after everything we have been through? After the losses and the waiting and the pain and the heartache...God could give us 2??? I am beyond myself.

Of course it's WAY to early to tell and they said it could also just be a small bleed of old blood that is common and that I have nothing to worry about. The hormone levels are perhaps SO HIGH because of the 2 sacs that they think they see! I still can't believe it as I type it on the page. One is a major blessing but 2 is a freakin' miracle! I don't know what to do, I am so happy.  One person should not have this much joy in their system...it's overload! (but I'll take it ;)

I go on Wed for my next ultrasound where they will tell me if in fact there are 2 or just 1...
either way here I go again asking for everyone's thoughts and prayers. Good vibes, good energy and just overall well being for me and whatever is happening inside of my body. I am so overjoyed that this is happening to me...One or two I honestly don't care. We just want one healthy, happy baby we can bring home and love and raise and call our own.

Miracles DO happen. One might have just happened to ME. Twins don't even run in my family!
This goes to show that God is amazingly good at what he does. I am praying everyday for whatever is going to happen...Thank you all for checking out my page, reading my words and taking this journey with me. It means a lot to me.

I hope you have a beautiful Sunday...I will write as soon as I know exactly what we are dealing with...

Till next time...

Until tomorrow...

Ok everybody...
I need peoples thoughts and prayers. Good vibes and all the positive energy I can get!  My doctors office called me today and said my blood work came in and they need to sit with me and discuss the results. Not good, right? Naturally I am freaking out. I've had a splitting head ache all day...feeling sick to my stomach and just an over all horrible anxiety of what they could or could not say tomorrow. I know I shouldn't be so scared..it's out of my hands and out of my control, right? I have to have FAITH. I have to believe that no matter what, everything will be ok. My biggest fear is that after everything, God will have to take this baby away from me too. I've been through so much and fought so hard to get to this place in my life and right now I stand before the door and I have no idea what's behind it. I will find out tomorrow. I hope you keep me and my husband in your thoughts tomorrow even if it's just for a second of time...Life is so precious, so fragile. Don't forget or take for granted that ANYTHING can change and happen in an instant. Until tomorrow...

                                                                         

Amazing weekend...

sooo I had a really amazing and fun weekend with my Dad, husband and friends. I needed to see family and people I love that I don't get to see often. It was a little slice of heaven and I felt every one of Gods smiles upon me.

You know those days where everything is just as it should be? The days where happiness is just so easy to attain? Nothing could ever stop it or come between it...well that was me and my heart this whole weekend. I am so full of joy and gratitude. I know this new life growing inside of me is just the beginning of an amazing life for us and I have no other words but THANK YOU. Thank you for letting me feel so peaceful and satisfied and so full. I hope everyone out there felt a little of what I did  in your own lives and with whatever you were doing. Looking forward to tomorrow and the days ahead...

AND just to make sure I took a 2nd preg test on Friday and this beautiful BRIGHT, blue plus sign just makes my heart flutter. What a miracle, what a gift...I cannot think of anything better than this right here...

Guess who's PREGNANT?????

 

ME...!!!!!

New Sunshine...

WOW...it's been WEEKS since I last blogged.
I guess you can say I've taken a little break from blogging, life and maybe even myself...

So many things have happened! We had Easter and then Mother's Day and basically all of April and half of May, are practically GONE...where does the time go? NO, seriously where does it go?????

I have so many things to look forward to!! My husband and I will be celebrating our very FIRST year of marriage together :) We are planning a nice trip somewhere for a few days and I am shopping for a simple wedding dress so we can renew our vows and have a mini-repeat of the amazing day we had last year! It will be just us and our love as we exchange words of love and gratitude we have for each other! I can't wait!!

Not only that but this week we also find out if we are PREGNANT, again!!??!! I can't wait and no matter what happens I want to blog about it! I want to share with you and anyone who will read my words and go through this journey with me, with us! Life is now and it needs to be lived NOW!
NO ONE is perfect and God will always guide us. If it's out time to bring a life into this world, then we will! right?

I have a new lease on life. I spent some time being sad, as you know by now from my other blogs but not anymore...I have made a decision to take every day as it comes and good or bad and I know that regardless, I will be ok! We will all be ok and it's all in our thoughts and actions!
If we think negatively then we will never see our full potential. We will never truly attain happiness and peace and I for one don't want to spend another second feeling defeated or down. Lots of not so great things have happened to me. In the past and just recently. I've suffered some losses and all I can say is that they were all SUPPOSED to happen. Without the mishaps and obstacles I wouldn't know how to tackle my future. I am even getting myself on that treadmill every day after work for just an hour. It has made SUCH a difference! I feel better and probably look a little better too! It's so nice to have an hour to unwind from the day, say my thanks to the light above and know that I am taking care of my health and body. I recommend it to all. It's tough and I am tired but if you get push through, it's amazing what you will find on the other side!

I hope everyone out there is having a beautiful morning and a beautiful LIFE :)
I hope you all stay tuned to my hopefully really great news! I have a new Doctor and got all kinds of tests done to see if there was anything we were missing but so far so good. I will know soon where life is taking us. Please keep me and my husband in your prayers. We want a family more than anything and we are READY for a little blessing to be a real part of our lives :)

As always, thanks for listening...